Are you hard on yourself, or can you take a compliment? If someone tells you that you look great do you say thank you and that's it. Or, are you like me, and say "Thank you, but...."?
See that picture to the left? Lise thought it was so cool, especially in black and white. You know what I see when I see that picture? A double chin. That is ALL I can focus on. She told me to shut up. LOL But seriously, that's all I see. If that picture was one of y'all, I'd never notice the chin. I'd think it was just a cool picture.
Why am I that way? Why are any of us that way? I already deal with al ot of insecurities about my weight, my figure, my clothes. Doing this blog has made me aware of how very critical I am of myself. There are a lot, I mean A LOT, of cute, skinny, young women writing blogs. And I really enjoy them. But man, they make me feel old and fat some days. You don't find many over 40 women blogging. (If you have links to some, send them my way. I follow a few, but I can name them all on one hand.) And you don't find many women that are size 12/14 and bigger blogging or being featured. I'll be forthright about my size. I'm a 12/14; a 12 on some days and a 14 on others. Then there are the days that nothing smaller than a tent feels good. I feel like Dolly Parton in Steel Magnolias here, "I wear a 6 but a 7 feels so good, I buy an 8." I just don't feel like many of the really cute looks I see on other bloggers will look right or good on me. I'll like a look, try it and think, Uh, no. I don't think so.
I am very self conscious about my weight. Even when I was a rail in high school, I thought I was heavy. My husband informs me that I was a stick and that it was really not that attractive. Thanks, honey! I've never had a flat stomach though, even at my skinniest. I tend to carry all my weight in the middle and after 2 kids, well, let's just say, it's not any better! So I tend to be really self conscious about anything I wear. It would be nice to be a size 8 again. And I guess I could be if I really dieted and exercised all the time, but that seems like a lot of effort! :) And it affects me when we're taking pictures. I'm constantly trying to figure out how to hide my figure flaws! Do you do that?
I would love to be tall and thin like Lise. But Lise says it brings it's own set of problems and I know I've heard her complain about her figure, too. She has trouble finding pants long enough. She complains that she's built like a boy. Which, she totally isn't, by the way.
Then there are the looks that I feel are too young for me. But, really, ARE there looks that are too young for any age?
I've apparently become obsessed with Rachel Bilson, despite probably being old enough to be her mother. I like the look of the dress with the denim jacket.
|Boots: Target, $7.56|
Jacket: thrifted, $4.88
Dress: Sassy Pants, $12
Bag: Michael Kors, gift from B.
Sunnies: Michael Kors
It just didn't translate as well as I thought it would. It seemed to look better in the mirror at home. I'm not digging this picture at all.
So, I took the jacket off and then all I can see are every bump of my body. Maybe I'm just having a bad day?
|I don't know what to do with my hands!And my tights won't stay straight!|
I really, really want to hear what everyone thinks!