Some years ago my friend Michelle called to see what we were doing. With all the rain they were tired of being "cooped up". "So, what have you been doing today?" she asked.
"Dancing in the rain with the kids" I replied. She laughed and told me I was the ultimate optimist.
But we all have our days when it is harder to be positive than others. Today is my day. It is raining, but I can't enjoy it because I (get ready for the whine) have been battling a migraine for over a week now! I truly want to crawl into a dark, cool, quiet place and take something that will make it GO AWAY!
(I know, do I want some cheese with that whine?)lol
Today marks a very important milestone. My 12 year old son has Aspergers. This has been an incredible journey for our family with enough experiences to fill a whole blog! He is in a public school attending 6th grade and is in the honors classes. I am so proud of this amazing child! Today he is riding the bus home with his best friend (and Joys son) Blake. On the outside you are wondering what the big deal is, right? Well, I have driven this child to and from school every day of his life. Children with Aspergers need structure and consistency! This is BIG. He has to take a note to the school secretary and get an approval stamp to show the bus driver and his agenda signed and get on the right bus and.....total change! I assured him that at any time today he would be able to call and I would come and get him, but he is determined to do this. We map out his day over and over. He looks a little worried, then my sweet 15 year old son comes in and pats his brother on the back and says "Buddy, I know you can do this because you have already overcome so much. And remember, if you get confused, go to Mrs. Kendrick and she will help you".*
I got a little teary eyed because letting go is not easy for me. Part of me wants to protect my children, but I also realize that preparing them to be independent and caring people is the best thing I can do. So, today I let my Isak go. Off to school and to find his own way to the school bus to meet Blake and ride home with him. As he learns to do this I know he will be better prepared to navigate his own way through life. But I love that my kids are learning to be there for each other also!
This is me laughing so hard I can not talk to the person on the phone (It's my husband, by the way). I have this migraine, the phones are crazy, we have people waiting in the lobby, I am worried about Isak, my head is THROBBING, my MIL has dementia and is moving in with us in 2 weeks, the back wall of my house is being remodelled to accommodate MIL and....... Spouse calls with some serious stuff to explain and I know I am now going to start giggling. Then spouse says "Are you laughing?" In my head I am like "Well, CRAP! Of course I am because it's all I am capable of this moment!" And Joy captures my Kodak moment.